i got the word train.. as in a train that’s going somewhere. i feel like that’s your life.. you’re always going somewhere, taking different routes, winding, straight, narrow… but you’re ALWAYS on track, because your life is in His hands, and He keeps your life on track, even though it may seem like you’re de-railing at times, He still keeps it on track… because He redeems all things, and turns even the worst into good. He’s your Father and only wants the BEST for you. He knows the littlest intimate details about you, things you might not even care that much about, but He doesn’t ignore them. He always gives extravagantly, because you’re His SON, and you inherit ALL the resources in heaven. He’s given you the power to do great things, not on your own, but only through Him can you do the impossible, the unthinkable, the unimaginable! Daddy knows you can dream big, but His dreams for you are even bigger, and all you have to do is stay close to His heart.

listen. ask the Holy Spirit to speak to you. He’s going to whisper crazy revelations, and secrets of the kingdom to you..but more than anything else, He’ll just tell you how much He loves you and loves spending time with you. because He just wants you.

yes, you. nobody else can satisfy His burning desire for you. we hunger and cry out for His presence, but that doesn’t even begin to compare to the way He longs for you, or the way He looks at you.

you’re it.

i got a picture of those paper hats u make when ur a kid… like the triangular shape ones? and i feel like God’s saying He’s building you up right now… and this season is a time to explore and discover new things about Him and your relationship with Him… He wants to be more intimate with you. He wants you to just be free in the process, and not over-analyze/overthink… and see it as a child would.. it’s not ‘too good to be true’ to believe, it IS good, because He is an extravagant Father, and wants even more for us than our hearts desire. YOU are HIS beloved. you belong to Him.

He loves you.

He loves you.

He loves you.

He is never disappointed in you, and He’s always proud, because when He sees you, He sees His beautiful daughter.. any feelings of not measuring up to ‘His standards’ is from the enemy, because He is a gracious and patient God, and He understands. He knows and sees how much you do for Him already, but at the end of the day, He just wants to be with you, because nothing can ever replicate/be more important that time spent together.

i asked the Holy Spirit to give me a picture.. and i got a picture of a bright red nose, you kno like on rudolph the reindeer? i asked Him what about this nose… and I feel like He’s saying that there’s something really special that makes you stand out… one unique quality about you that makes you different from all the rest, and it’s your generousity..not necessarily material generousity, but it’s generousity with your heart. you have such an amazingly big big heart, you just overflow with love no matter who it is, no matter what they’ve done or not done, you just keep loving. and that is exactly the Father’s heart, to love always.

i feel like there’s a really big calling on your life… and i kept getting the word ‘high’ … and i saw you leaping across the sky. the favour you’ve had in your job so far is only the beginning, a little teaser for bigger things to come, and He’s going to keep pouring more favour in your job this year, and accelerate you to the point where people are shocked at your progress, because He will arrange everything for you, and put it all into place.

i don’t know if it’s true or not but i just wanted to declare that anyway and release it. He’s so proud of you.. keep walking with Him.

(i apologize for the delay in posting..it’s been a bit harder than i expected, finding enough time to write a letter every day..but here is the 3rd one :P )

i feel like God wants to tell you He loves you… and show you just how much.. you’ve always known in your head but now He wants you to really experience it in a tangible way.. and i feel like in this season, His words and promises are really going to come alive in your life.

i also feel like God’s saying.. I love you ______.. you’re my precious daughter and I will never leave you. I will always be pursuing you and chasing after your heart, because I created you, and that made you everything to me. you are amazing, and nothing you do or don’t do will ever change the way I think about you. you are always good in My eyes. just come to Me child, let Me be your Comforter.

i got a picture of someone opening a box, maybe a present.. their face changed into surprise (the good kind), as they opened and took things out of it. they were surprised, because the things inside were just so much more extravagant than they expected to receive/thought they deserved. i feel like that’s what you’re going to do for people around you - family, friends, strangers.. they’re going to know & feel His crazy extravagant love because you went that extra mile for them, even though they weren’t expecting a thing. you love to give because you know your Daddy has so much more to give, and your rewards in heaven will be countless.

as i was thinking about what to write, this phrase came to me: “I see you”. i feel like God’s saying.. I see you, ______. I have held you in my heart for eternity long. I have never lost track of you, or brushed your prayers aside because I had something else I needed to do. I have heard your every cry of desperation and anger/frustration, and I have not ignored them, because I have felt your pain and I have not forgotten. I created you, and your life is never off-track. you are exactly where I want you to be - close to My heart. there’s nothing I enjoy more than listening to you.

i saw the colour green, and this peace just washed over me… and i was reminded of Psalms 23: “The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters. He restores my soul..” Daddy’s always taking care of you, even though it may not seem like that sometimes…

then 1 Samuel 3 came to mind.. where Samuel gets up 3 times because he thought Eli was calling him..and he was ready for whatever he thought Eli needed him for.. and i feel like that’s very similar to you, you’re always ready to jump in and help do whatever’s needed..but i feel like God’s saying He loves that, but it’s ok to step back sometimes too, because He doesn’t want you to burn out. everything will work itself out.

i wanted to email you yesterday, to tell you how much i admire your vulnerability and honesty about what’s been going on in your life, as you’ve briefly shared the last few times i’ve seen you. it’s definitely not a common thing to see.. everyone wants to look strong and have it together, nobody wants to admit they’re struggling.. it may come naturally to you, but it’s a difficult thing for most people to do..

like for me, i’ve always thought i was a pretty open person, and willing to share/be vulnerable, but lately i’ve been realizing that i’m actually not as open as i thought. and now i’m having a hard time getting across to the other side, where i share what’s really on my mind and heart. it’s hard for me to even open up to good friends, much less new friends… so i just wanted to let you know how blessed and inspired and honoured i am, because you shared a part of your life w/me, and that my friend, is what community is built upon - broken people with open hearts and open hands, recognizing their need for God and each other.

so i encourage you to keep sharing, in a safe environment of course, because doors will open for you. not just a few, but hundreds of thousands of doors, just because you opened your heart to one person. i got a picture of the downtown eastside, and i feel like there’s a calling for you to the down and out, the outcasts of society, people who have experienced adversity. it may not necessarily be in the dt eastside, but i feel like God’s given you a special compassion for those people, and i see you interacting with them, and you’re just so kind and it draws them closer to you, and they want more of what you have!

i feel like what you’re going through now is just very temporary, because if God can raise people from the dead, how much more is He able to heal you! You’re HIS son, and He’s not going to be finished with you until you’re completely His. He will never give up on you.

it’s taken a while… but i’ve finally decided what my next 31 day challenge will be!

i feel that i need to be more active in my life, and walking out my faith more - “if you’re going to talk the talk, you’ve got to walk the walk”. faith is tangible, and without deeds is dead.

i’ve received many, many prophetic words at my church for the last 3 years, and my first reaction has usually been “really??”/”that’s not me”/”i’m so far from that” for a very long time until recently when i realized that i need to truly believe and CHOOSE to believe that God will do what He has said to me, no matter what the reality looks like. If He said it, He’ll do it.

i got a word that i am prophetic recently, so to walk out that word, i joined the prayer ministry team, and i’ve been in training at CG for the past month or so, praying for a different person each week, getting feedback from my leader and the person, etc.. it’s been pretty neat and scary, but super cool to see people blessed and hearing them share about their lives too.

something REALLY cool happened last week, as my leader has been encouraging me to be more specific when i pray, but this time she asked me to give a name, something where i can be wrong in. so i got a name for the person i was praying for, and my leader asked what about that name? i got the word restoration and it turned out that was actually the name of an old friend they had been thinking of contacting again recently. they lost touch because of a major accident that happened a few years ago and caused a traumatic ripple of events. needless to say, i was floored. i’d never tried that before, except for one other time 2 years ago, which i got wrong.

prophetic simply means hearing from God. all i did was ask Him for a name, and i honestly thought i was pulling it out of my butt, and i’m always hesitant when praying for others, but He showed me that i can hear His voice as clearly for others as i do for myself!

so to challenge myself further and walk out another word (i am a writer) simultaneously, i’m going to write a prophetic letter to a different person for the next 31 days.

due to the personal nature of this challenge i will either post the letter with no name OR the name of the person i wrote to. nothing will be posted until the person has received it.

if you want a letter, FB/tweet/email me! :)

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I FINISHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it’s been pretty fun getting back into photography, trying to be artistic sometimes, and always trying to capture that elusive kodak moment. and i admit, i’m trying to better my skills and eye to justify buying a better lens LOL

but i don’t know what to challenge myself with next, except for the fact that people want more photos - a 365 day photo challenge? o_O i duno if i can handle it..i’m gona run out of things to shoot in my place!

i welcome more ideas - tweet me @tkwan23!

and now for the final photo…

these cushions will soon have a home because i will finally be getting a couch this month if all goes as planned!!(sorry the lighting in my place sucks)

trying my hand at wedding photography LOL